[XV.IX.XII-II]

Got this present yeaaayy!! Happy 2 months Anniv ehehehehehe

'\(^O^)/'

Early Morning

Me back,, yeaa finally.. 

I've been a lazybones lately haha now I'm just doing nothing at home while wait for my graduation day.. I do thankful for this thing 6(o*w*o)9 

Ahhh finally, I'll be officially out from that shitty place aahahhahah,, me so glad to hear that.. 

Goodbye shitty place, goodbye those idiot regulation, goodbye you old crazy people, and goodbye for those indescribable people....

Well, no matter how I hate that place,, I have no doubt that I'll miss my friends out there :)

Yeaa no matter how pity I am, thankfully I still have friends there,,, don't care mine aren't as many as other people have but still thankful that I have friends, there..

I do nothing lately, just do some crap until my besties asked me to do some small exercise at the morning. Then miraculously I finally woke up very early that day haha I usually wake up when the sun is already above my head. They planned to have a walk there, which was turned to be a small talk (gossip time) ahahahahha girls!! We also took some pictures,, (which was nothing to do with exercise) and the result is....

exercise lvl 2 vs girls time lvl 1000

mwahahahhaha...

 #me and Verica#

#meditation? think twice haha#

#Thres and Verica#

 #Did you see that I took a small rainbow?#

#happy face :)#

 #Oh Jesus! I'm getting fat each day, hikssss, I really need a real exercise haha#

Happy Super Birthday

Happy Birthday to meeh ,, yeaayy well it's already June 20th but yesterday was my bday hahhahaha my age is getting older dear,, now I'm XXI!!!

Last nite on June 19th, at 12.15 a.m, somebody came and gave me this cute package hahaha he just came a while just to gave me that package :) arigatou Adie...

No one did that before actually hehe

Then I went out with my friends and celebrate my bday :)

#with Verica, my besties :)# 

#with Adie :)#  

#photobox (Adie, Alvin, Verica, Me) :)# 

Ureshiiiiikataa neee \(o^O^o)/

When I met the devil

It actually an old story about a place where I go to college, yes, you might know how I don't like my college so bad. And today, it reached to the top. I do realize that they are truly devils who live among us in earth, in order to make this world become as similar to hell. 

Hey I do feel that hell almost everyday there, but today i'm on my top. I've had enough. I can't stand anymore and can't just close my eyes and ears just like I used to be.

He's being too  %#^Q@&@%@%#*%#&($&^  (cannot be describe)

# The word 'He' refers to the person who's being the leader of that hell and he's responsible to "HELP" me doing my final task, you could called him Lucifer,, they are so similar #

You know what things could make me feel this way, 

I'll tell you this,, better using Bahasa cause I can't even describe it using English...

Lucifer : " kamu abis lulus mau ngapain? "

Me       : " mau kerja pak."

Lucifer : " mau kerja apa? "

Me       : " belom tau pak, tapi si mau kerja dulu. "

Lucifer : " kerja di panti asuhan aja, kan kamu yatim tuh,, jadi administrasinya ajah hahahaha. "

Me       : " ..........."

Lucifer : " iya anak yatim kerja di panti asuhan aja, hahahaha. "

Lucifer : " kamu masuk panti asuhan gitu gag? "

Me       : " ngga pak (T_T) "

I don't know whether I'm too much, or this thing is actually horrible..

Apakah pantas, seorang yang dijuluki berpendidikan mengeluarkan lelucon seperti itu di depan umum?

Bagaimana bisa predikat anak yatim dijadikan bahan lelucon di depan umum?

Apakah menjadi anak yatim itu adalah hal yang patut ditertawakan dan merupakan hal yang lucu?

Hal sensitif seperti ini nampaknya bukan hal yang lucu, apalagi dijadikan bahan lelucon di depan umum karena itu menyangkut perasaan dan orang yang disayangi. 

Apalagi lelucon itu dilemparkan kepada seorang perempuan yang memang sudah ditinggalkan ayahnya. 

Apapun maksud perkataannya, tetap saja hal itu tidak pantas dan sangat tidak berhati nurani.

I do admit that I cried today,, after I walked out from that room. I just became so sad when there's someone talk about that...esp inappropriate way like that . 

I guess he's truly a devil who don't have any heart to feel what human could  feel.

Hey, I love my dad, he don't deserve to speak like that... I don't even care whether he respect his dad or not, but I do respect and love my dad.. He can't speak such rude things.. 

but I know that God won't sleep and He loves me more, He won't let me be sad. 

I do believe that..

God bless him and open his brain, in order to make him stop to be a Lucifer...

and there's more today,,, making this thing even getting worse...

janjian jam 1, yaa pada telat sedikit, akhirnya disuru jam 3, pas kita udah dateng jam 3, eh dia malah tidur, terus ditanya sama temen, malah marah-marah, ditungguin sampe hampir jam 5 malah nyuruh besok pagi..

you know??? this things happen not only today but it keeps happen this whole weeks,, how couldn't I be tired physically and emotionally?? the worse is emotionally..

I hope I could get out as soon as possible and I NEVER want to deal with that Lucifer anymore, I give up and quit...

If I don't love my family, I've just go out from that place since long time ago,, but I do love them and I have to finish it....

Pray for me, so I could still live in the middle of the darkness...

Make Me Up

Yeaaayy I'm just having a make-up day with my besties, Rissa hahahaha,, it was fun and I finally try some hard make-up. It's been so long since I want to try that because I used to see some make-up tutorial on youtube but still can't apply it by myself, and thankfully Rissa helped me to do the make-up. Hahahaha I'm totally an amateur on this things, I usually wear daily make-up only :) Thanks to Rissa for teaching me the techniques \(^O^)/ (but I guess still can't do it by myself at home wkwk)

So here is the result, hopefully it's not too much :D

#before and after#

#yeaaayy fake eyelashes#

#The gorgeous one, Rissa Floris Santania#

#before and after Rissa#

#both of us in a bold lipstick#

#our pictures on phone#

#love this scene :)#

#I finally looks older yeaaayyyyy#

Home Sweet Home

Yeaayy, I'm home now haha I actually enjoy my time there (a place that I called as earth, of course beside my home :) but I have to take my holiday now cause tomorrow I've got a presentation at campus,, yeaa it sucks. I actually wish I won't go back to that shitty place again hahahaha,, but I have to,, anyway..

I finally did a photo session today haha really miss to do that,, and actually I miss to wear a skirt, since my duty makes me have to wear a pants only (quite hectic job but fun anyway :) That's why I wear my skirt on today's photo session (yep almost every photos contain skirt, I guess haha) and this is my new teddy bear shirt and my new bangs, yeaay..

Hey, do you notice that I loss weight a little bit? hahahaha so happy since my duty makes me do a lot of exercise and you know, since I live outside home, I ate regularly and took less food than I usually take at home, hahahaha [read: anak kosan] (^W^)// That's why I loss weight (a little bit actually)

But here I am now, at home with a bunch of meal and I keep eating now haha, ddaaaamnn,, I hope I'll lose some weight again later wkwkwk ~(^O^)~ 

Aah, there's one more I want to tell, it's about my new shoes haha, it's so common actually, but it was so long, since my last time I worn a sneakers (since SHS) :p and once more, because of my duty there, I can be more comfortable by using this kind of shoes, and you know? I enjoy to wear it rather than my regular flats haha,,, and it looks good anyway :D

[don't want to end this duty now, but I have to catch up the task, so I can go out from the parallel universe as fast as I can] :( 

*my duty on 'a place a called as earth' will be over 2 or 1 weeks from now* 

uuuw don't want to go back to the shitty place (read: campus) this fast :(

#Teddy bear shirt, lacey skirts, sneakers#

 #Keep eating#

 #So happy since March#

#New bangs :)#

I Finally Found Earth :D

Uuuu i do miss to blog hahha but i have a duty now, that's why i'm going to vanished for this 2 months :) but i'm going to tell you about this nice place haha i finally feel that i'm back to earth since i lost for almost 3 years in the paralel universe (^O^)///// aaa i never feel this way again since my last time on my school time,,,

This place, is someplace that i thought it couldn't be better than that paralel universe at first (read: worse or the same) but finally i found that this place is actually nice and so much better than that paralel universe... i feel that i'm no longer invisible now.. But i do admit that i'm quite tired sometimes, physically tired, but just physically tired, totally different when i'm on that paralel universe, i'm tired physically and mentally both. Why? because the people are undivine (couldn't be written here, cause it will contain such bad words haha)

But finally i know that this past 3 years where i usually be an alien on that paralel universe isn't because my own fault. It's just because that paralel universe isn't my place, cause my home is in a place called 'earth'

I just hope that i can go out from that paralel universe as fast as i can (few months left), so i can be home forever :)

The Kid on The Skirt

I finally made my outfit post again yeayyy,, this one is inspired from my campus skirt, yes this skirt usually used when I went to campus only (paired with formal shirt, of course)

You know that my campus only allowed an office wear ~(-.- *) that's why I thought to wear it with two different casual shirt :) but everyone told me that I looks like a kid on this photos hahaha,,, poor me for always looks like a kid (-.- #)\

Well I hate to admit it but actually, sometimes I'm not just physically looks like a kid but also mentally looks like a kid, ( -o- )\ perhaps that's why I always being fooled cause a kid who don't know anything, always being fooled by they who knows everything. yeaa meanwhile on earth, mean world is mean hahaha

#Mom's black scarf, purple plain tee, floral black skirt, white socks, flat shoes# 

 #Edited on a different color pattern#

#Yellow plain tee, necklace, floral black skirt, white socks, flat shoes# 

  #Summer color on rainy season#

Too much photos of me? haha sorry for that :p

I love taking pictures (of me also haha)

 #Paired with different color pattern#